Let’s start with sorry 🙈

I’m so sorry it’s been about a month since I last wrote on this blog that’s supposed to be a diary.

Do I make it a daily/weekly diary? I dunno. But I find writing therapeutic so I should make use of

The diary of a pinkaholic.

So keep your eyes peeled here and fingers crossed I’ll put as much goings on as I can.

It’ll be interesting I promise you 😘

Just a shortie…. Like me.

Lots of love xx


M.E and me

So today is M.E AWARENESS DAY.

What is that I hear you say. It stands for myalgic encephalomyelitis. It’s not just chronic fatigue as many people think it is.

I have had this illness since 2014 and it literally zaps the life out of you and makes you not able to function including trying to communicate as you have no strength. My symptoms can vary, the most one that affects me is losing my voice for weeks at a time and brain fog when you know what you want to say but you just can’t muster up how to put what you want to say across.

I learn how to pace myself and do little bits and take a little break and if I’m having a big flare sometimes bed for a week is needed.

I’ll leave you with a few Pinterest finds

Invisible illnesses really do need to be more recognised all over the world.

Try to be a supportive person to those who need it whatever their illnesses are.

May Goals

I thought since I am feeling a bit better I should try and set some goals for this month

❤️ Start writing a page a night for my book I’m going to publish about anxiety and mental health.

❤️ Swap my winter wardrobe over for my summer onsombles.

❤️ Really pay attention to my skincare and keep to a daily routine ( I’ll keep you updated on the skin front)

❤️ Look for inspiration for giving my room a makeover – Pinterest is always a good place to start.

❤️ Take more photos and put some effort into my social media platforms. I don’t care about who likes it I just want to put good stuff out there for me, so I can see what I’ve done…like a memory timeline type thing.

❤️ Keep a positive head on because nobody gets anywhere with a negative attitude

There you go I think they will be manageable.

In a month you’ll know if I’ve conquered them all.

Much loves and I’ll see you in my next post.

When writing touches the heart

This is exactly how I feel like when I write, I want it to touch someone in one way or another. Never to make anyone cry of course but if it’s a lesson to be learnt or a story to make you aware I can’t promise that it won’t bring a little tear. But genuinely I love to bring you happiness and sometimes educate you on things I’ve learnt that I think will value you.

Write from the heart to touch someone’s heart, it makes it all worthwhile.

Bedtime thoughts

So from the title you can probably guess that I’m in my bed curled up. Not comfortably because of surgery but curled up all the same.

So I just watched this programme on channel 4 called naked beach. Getting 3 individuals to have body confidence and maybe by the end of the week (episode) you see if they’ve built up the courage and confidence to bear all. There is 8 positive mentors I guess you could call them that.

It gave me food for thought, about how to appreciate my own body. I know it’s going to always have a bag on it but to love my body I have to look past my extra bit I have now and embrace my scars, stretch marks and my wobbly bits. I always think it’s better to have a bit of curvage about you.

Once it’s lost its swollen /bloatedness I’ll be taking a pic for my scrapbook for sure.

Be proud of all your body can do. Celebrate it.

Recovery and getting back to normality

Hey my beauties,

Sorry for kind of deserting ‘The Diary Of A Pinkaholic. Once I had my surgery on the 18th I was literally doped up on morphine and in la la land for the first week. I couldn’t move very well and the anaesthetic was giving me pain as it tried to work its way out of my body. I was irritated to fook so as soon as i felt I could I came off the strong pain killers and I am now on paracetamol as and when.

I had a huge anxiety attack the beginning of the second week, the biggest I’ve had in the 18 years of suffering with anxiety. I seriously thought this is it.

So once I was fit for discharge on day 10 it was like I can’t bloody wait for my own creature comforts and my bed.

I have had my ups and downs since I’ve been home but it’s still very early days so can’t expect miracles.

They say 6-8 weeks to feel semi normal but I wasn’t ever normal in the beginning ha ha.

Anyways I’ll leave it there for today and I’ll be back in a few days

Much love 💕

Bear with me

I am going to be taking a break from my rambling blog….This one.

I am having major surgery this afternoon and unsure when I will feel normal.

I have however scheduled some blog posts over on my main blog www.holzieloves.co.uk if you want to follow me there.

I’ll be back on here as soon as I can.

Ciao for now xx